Smokin’ Out the Window

Here you see me out and about, living life, enjoying myself. Which is what I should be doing. I deserve to experience any and everything I want because I work to be able to do so right? Well, ya girl is stressed today because I realized that unless something changes in the very near future this will be a serious year of no.

I am still working through my 2022 new year guide (grab one here - no I am not affiliated) and made it to the dreadful budget section. This is always a source of contention for me because as I said above, I work and I believe I deserve to eat, drink, buy, do what I want to do when I want to do it. My bank account however says otherwise. As for me, in all my Aries greatness, I do not appreciate having to explain myself nor answer to anyone but it doesn’t work well when it’s me facing myself.

According to this super adult version of a budget I would like to incorporate, including full automation, once I pay all my bills I am left with sitchoassdown we got food at home. That’s the vibe and I am NOT pleased. I got so upset working on it that I got emotional, tears and all, and began to stress snack (now I see where this extra weight came from). Definitely had me smoking out the window, singing how could she do this to me, but it’s me doing it to myself.

I used my burst of emotional energy to put the snacks away, clean the kitchen and think this through. It is definitely going to sting a bit at first but if I do this correctly I will no longer be behind the 8-ball of budgeting. For a brief period of discipline, I will be able to plan for and execute my next grand idea and dream. Discipline will serve me well because this dream of mine is a doozy as they say, but attainable for sure. I don’t know if a year-long “no buy” is in my DNA but this will be damn near close to it and I know those that matter don’t mind, as well as those that do mind, don’t matter. I also know that my circle will want to know what they can do to “save” me from having to decline most activities but I do not want them to. This is something I have to do for myself, I do not want to be a damsel in distress.

I have always had my sights set on something beyond DC, MD & VA and it will happen. Watch my smoke.